This Recovery Story has been on my website for a long time, but for many reasons, I haven't really 'posted' it. It is a truly a small window into my story and I really want people to read the book to get the entire backstory. I decided to share it here today, cautiously, for I have had more people ask me what Anam Nostos House is really about. My recovery story was the beginning, and the end is celebrating every day until I die the gift that I am still breathing, still alive. I fought. That was not always a given. Walk with me...
How often do you take time to explore your personal journey beyond your own self-imposed definitions?
How often do the limitations you quietly put on yourself intersect with the life you are aching to live?
“The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.” ~Buddha
One of the most valuable phrases I took away from all of my treatment came from a wonderful therapist in Arizona, while I was in a ‘last ditch’ alternative treatment program where I would do two stints. I sat in daily group therapy one particular morning, the most dreaded time of the day where vulnerability in front of one’s peers was of its retching essence as the therapists thrived on getting this vulnerability out onto the surface for all to witness determined it was the way towards healing, which indeed was true.
Love is the most powerful energy in existence. I believe it is often most over looked when it comes to ourselves. For some reason, we find it difficult to stop and get in touch with oneself on a regular basis. It takes work and it’s scary. One may just find out they aren’t living honestly as they go deeper within their own story. They will inevitably be forced to walk in a different direction.
How many of us can say we live passionately?
How many of us can say we live with passion as our focus on a day to day basis?
Do we actually take the time putting every bit of ourselves into all that we do?
One may think it sounds simple, but in fact people do struggle with this every day. There are so many little things that get in our way from doubts, others negative will, to the daily lists of what we have to accomplish that passion turns into a luxury.
Life is a constant evolving journey. We count on the fact that change occurs on a daily basis. We learn. We grow. We build a new foundation daily.
For some change can be compared to something as painful as going to the dentist, others can thrive on a new challenge. I believe that our world can only exist with an ever changing existence to constantly attempt to better its self.
"When you understand who and what you are, your radiance projects into the universal radiance and everything around you becomes creative and full of opportunity.”
What is beauty? Re-envisioning beauty for me was having the courage to embrace the reality around me and change it into my voice and vision rather than what society tell us daily.
I took more years than I care to admit to discover my Voice, but once I did there was no turning back. What does that exactly mean? Well, for most of my life I let others words, choices, opinions, views and criticism become my own. I never gave myself a change to define my journey from the very beginning. I took them as they were the bible of life and lived them thoroughly until all of my life came crashing down before me.
Have you claimed your beauty? Do you own it? Share it? Embrace it? Or…are you one in the millions who are constantly doubting, berating, criticizing, loathing and downright not honoring the gift of beauty we are all born with?
Powerful words. Do they ring true for you? Do you really take time to listen to your body and what it is speaking to you on a daily basis?
Our bodies are our temples. They have stories to tell and journeys to take us on if we will say, ‘yes!’ to the adventure.
Our world is in a state of chaos. There is no denying it. Every direction you turn right now, we are faced with upset, turmoil and often issues that are too big for us to take on alone.
One aspect of my work tends to be a total drain psychologically. My work thrives on social media, as a mobile retreat house. There is no way to turn a blind eye to the events going on in the world, as hard as one tries to do so.
The world is real, the struggle is real. Depression and anxiety are nothing to dismiss....listen and share.
Love your body, listen to a few words from Andrea!
Undoubtedly, every day we live our life for ourselves first, without even thinking. It truly is a rare breed of individuals who ACT within their faith they practice on a regular basis. Mother Teresa is one of those very unique stories that inspires us to go out into the world to be a part of the change that is needed.
A lamentation in the truest definition is a passionate expression of grief or sorrow, a time of deep sincere weeping. Many of us walk through this life doing everything we possibly can to avoid such admonition of grief. We believe that we have to walk through each day with our head held high and be able to recite only the good of each moment that has passed. Society has made it impossible to be okay with times of struggle labeling it as weakness and an inferiority.
“Tears are a way of freeing the self from ills and allowing blessings to come in.” ~Joseph Sergott O.P.
What would life be like if we could see the soul of each person, rather than what we wear on the outside?
Take a moment to truly digest that thought…the soul. What an extraordinary idea and gift it would be to receive.
‘Do we say ‘yes’ to God the way Mary did?’ ~ Pope Francis
How many times in a day do we say ‘no’ to one question or another that comes at us, for we don’t want to be inconvenienced? It could be as simple as a neighbor asking for a ride to the store as their car is broken down. A friend needing someone to just listen on the other side of the phone, but you are just too tired to hear another sad story. A co-worker who is falling behind in their work due to personal problems and yet no one offers to help.
I have begun to realize that I have used my repentance, my insistent focus on my unworthiness to protect myself from facing the truth that God loves me even in the midst of my brokenness. Repentance: the action of repenting; sincere regret or remorse. The older I get the more I am aware that I am simply weak and broken, as are we all. My struggles along the ever changing journey have taught me that I have to trust my life to God’s love.
51 Billion Dollars on one Olympic Celebration. It happens every Olympics, the stories and people forgotten among the grandiose celebration. You don’t have to be a top educated person to look around at the poverty around us to know that has to be one of the most ridiculous insults to every child going to bed with the pains of hunger so deep within their stomach tonight. Homeless Shelters are overcrowded turning people away in the bitter frigid darkness of winter sending fearful families to the streets to find shelter.
The internet is a flurry with discussion and every opinion under the moon on the papal documents, ‘Amoris Laetitia’ or ‘The Joy of Love,’ that was released last week. A simple search can find every angle you could possibly imagine on the document.
You can throw your own thoughts into the never ending discussion threads until everyone tires of their own voice only to realize in the end there is only one bottom line from this beloved Pope; love wins.
"When we recognize the virtues, the talent, the beauty of Mother Earth, something is born in us, some kind of connection, love is born." ~Thich Nhat Hanh
Where do you pray? There was a time when the answer was obvious, Church. But, as centuries go by, life has evolved as do our daily practices.
How good are we to our children if we are only ‘living for them?’
I hear this often, ‘my kids are my everything’ or ‘life just doesn’t exist without my kids.’ I believe we are doing them an injustice with this mentality. I came before my children and I came to them with quite a journey! A journey that deserves to be honored not just for me, but for my children as well.
All Souls Day, Día de Muertos, Day of the Dead…celebrating those loved one’s who have passed from this life; some too soon and others well lived to the fullest. Reminding us through dance, song, prayer and community that death is not to be feared rather respected. There is a circle of life to be acknowledged, to be free to appreciate each moment we are gifted breath.
Find Your Voice Project
Fall Madly in Love with Yourself
Celebrating Women in my Tribe
Fall Madly in Love with Yourself
Is it True?
Listening to the Wisdom of Our Bodies
Love your Body (Watch)
Power of Voice
There is a Light in the Darkness (Watch)
A Single Mom's Good Friday
Ecumenism, Unity in Faith
In the Palm of His Hand
Lift Up, Not Down
Living an Authentic Life
Mother Earth's Prayer
Pope Francis’ Joy of Love Wins
Seeing One's Soul
The Beauty of Tears
Repentance, Unworthiness and the Quest for Good
What is your Lamentation?