Three words I write about often that grab hold of my heart this time of year.
I find the intense beauty of Fall with its delicate offerings in the few months that it bookends inescapable. There truly is something for everyone to take away in reflection on their journey up until this point; if so inclined to pause, look and listen. The choice of which path you will walk and embrace as the year winds down to a close is ultimately yours. This year has brought us many challenges, often great pain, and sadness, but in the end, we can choose to let go of what was and focus on making the best of what is to come.
As the Fall Equinox approaches each year, I most look forward to reflecting over that which has not served me well in the several months prior. I consciously make a choice to face that which I need to let go and release from my core energy before I can allow for the dark of winter solstice to claim my soul in all its vulnerability. It is in that vulnerability, where the depth of healing can begin. And it is in that vulnerability that intentions will slowly be born for the forthcoming Spring.
As the leaves poetically turn their glorious colors and dance gently to the ground, I am reminded of the process of ‘letting go.’ I believe that we all have pieces of our lives that we want to release at any given time. We are in a season, if you will, where it is more prominent than ever.
Fall is giving us the permission to let go of those ills and walk towards the solstice. Fall is challenging us to be more, to be better.
When we embrace the release, we are more open to sit in the darkness of solstice with more ease. As we embrace the darkness, we can begin to trust the light that will break through at the end of the process. We can allow ourselves in our vulnerability to be open to that which will come our way to bloom in the Spring.
Every winter as the soulful darkness creeps up on me; it never fails to hold the inner depths of my emotions that I have failed to express on a level all its own. The brisk cold sinks into my bones re-awakening my process. This is when I am reminded to not let those darker moments of life define me, rather, heal me.
I refuse to run from this darkness as I had in my younger years. I choose to challenge myself to sit with the uncomfortable truths, until I find my balance.
I am challenging you to sit with your own darkness and emotions this approaching solstice.
What story will they reveal?
What gift are they going to offer you to bring into the new year?
It is a time to wait with eagerness as we approach with anticipation our personal resolve to move towards something new. By walking through this process, we can find gratitude in the darkness that will consume our winter, our deeper story.
I honor that it is not an easy path to risk walking. When we value those gifts in any darkness and struggle, they will add to our story in ways that will bring new understanding. This understanding allows for our ‘spring’ to come in fully.
This beautiful Italian word has held powerful meanings for me throughout my journey, as I have put closure to aspects of my life at any given road. Its meaning, ‘crossing over,’ fits perfect into the poetic days of fall, solstice, and the far-off approaching spring. This process allows for us to cross over and bring life into the forthcoming. The process is ongoing. At times we can feel like our fall comes in the middle of the year. We must embrace these moments wherever we find ourselves, in order to move forward.
I find my ‘letting go’ changes every year, every day. I am needing to sit in every darkness that comes to learn its valuable lesson. My ‘Attraversiamo’ is trusting the process of life. It is not an easy process, but I must own it. If I trust the process, I know I will be where I am meant to be in the moment that I walk.
What this time of reflection in the Equinox has allowed me to see is that perhaps any one of my roads I have walked, lessons I have stumbled through, were put out there to plant the seed in someone else who needed to hear them as well.
Ultimately, I want the lessons learned from my healing journey to help others. I do not need to be in the equation.
As I reflect in these passing learning moments, trusting in the process of ‘letting go’ and crossing over; I have found where my ultimate gifts lie. The challenge for me will be to own my fear and doubt in the process. I know what direction I am meant to walk. I know that my story is valuable. I trust that piece. I will honor the time frame that I do not get to set.
What will you choose to let go of this fall?
How will you sit in your darkness?
Will you take the risk to cross over?
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Andrea creates, builds, and offers her teachings and hands on life tools based on her journey healing her body image after a 14yr battle and life of trauma. Her vision always is to help others live a full life with the journey they are given.