Easter Season Resurrection
We are all likely to have at least one ‘resurrection’ on our journey through this one life we are given. Some of us may even go through more than one! The challenge is in asking the hard question, ‘How will you walk through it?’ Will you be guided by grace or will the darkness overcome you? Can you take the time to see the light among the challenge or will you choose to wallow in the pain of what has gotten you to where you are at this day?
I honestly could say that I have been through more than one resurrection, but my greatest one is what shaped my journey forward. This month I finished a long overdue book almost 12 years into my recovery from my eating disorder of 14 years. Many people have been encouraging me to write it for some time as they had heard my story along the way on the speaking circuit or had walked the treacherous path with me towards the gifted recovery.
It’s as if I simply wasn’t ready to ‘go back’ through the process. But then one day a little over a year ago an even bigger challenge occurred. I never thought it could get as dark as the days within my illness, but this point was pretty low. It was low enough that I could see only time was going to allow for healing, it was low enough that I found myself looking into the mirror I so cautiously avoided to find my true self; to find the recovered woman I once knew on the first day I took a step forward knowing I had left the eating disorder behind. That was the day when my light shined greater than it ever had, my voice was as loud as it had ever been in love and I knew nothing was going to break me.
While I had two miracle blessings since then, my son and daughter, I got lost somewhere along the way by another person’s voice and journey, silencing what I knew was true. One year ago I began the journey to coming back to life and today I am here! Today, ‘Find Your Voice Project: A journey towards healing’ is in its final stages of becoming its destiny and I am becoming who I was always meant to be.
I, no doubt, believe I could have another resurrection along the way, but today I am taking all that I have learned and putting that passion into my dream of building the Anam Nostos Retreat House alongside my children. Today, my voice is going to be loud once again, it’s going to be my own and it will speak my truth in all that I am today.
No fear, no lies, no doubts…only love.
The Easter Season and spring are about a time of renewal, life blooming all around us. How will you rise on your journey today? Will you answer the call to live the journey meant for you?